Today

I had a religious moment last night, I'm trying not to make a big deal about it because I don't want to make this big proclamation and then not follow through and fail....again.....but at the Girl Talk show.... when I was drenched in sweat.... dancing with hundreds of other sweaty bodies, and the Today by the Smashing Pumpkins remix came on and balloons dropped from the ceiling...I got a little choked up and teary eyed. I HAVE to do this. I'm gonna be thin... and I know I shouldn't think about it like that.... so I have to be healthy! I HAVE TO DO WHATEVER IT IS TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT ME.

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known

Excuses are the nails used to build a house of failure.  ~Don Wilder and Bill Rechin